Showing posts with label Addiction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Addiction. Show all posts

Monday, September 15, 2014

Freedom

Every once in a while, I’ll ask a few of my friends for a topic to write about. So when I asked last night, I received a few way different ideas. Jay told me to write about Freedom. Naturally, I’m like WTF? That’s not really specific. In turn he said, “The freedom of bettering yourself. Not holding yourself back”. A light blub came on as soon as I read that message.

The thing about writing is that there’s no wrong way to say how YOU feel. When you write, they may not appreciate your honesty or opinion but it’s yours and you own that shit. How can you tell me what I’m saying isn’t important? I don’t give a damn if YOU think it isn’t because when I wrote it, it meant something to me. I may write fast but if I write about it, I’ve put a lot of thought and energy into it. I don’t write for the likes or RT’s. Shit, most of the stuff doesn’t even get RT’s. But it may be the one thing that one person who read it needed to hear.

There’s not enough time in the day or care in the world for me to want to sugar coat things. If I write it, its usually in raw form. It’s extremely rare for me to alter anything because of how it will be perceived. Take it or leave it. You love it, hate it or feel indifferently about the topic at a hand.

It took me quite some time to start the project that I’m working on. Not because I didn’t have anything to talk about but I was giving too much of a damn about what people would think. Not strangers because I never really give a fuck about what people who don’t personally know me think. People as in MY people. People I speak to daily, weekly, monthly, ever. People who know me. Or people who think they do. How can I let people take away my freedom? Why would I? I knew that what I had to say was worth way more than an opinion. I knew that since I was a child, writing was my outlet. Writing was my savior. Writing set me free from any and everything that was wrong. Yes, I’d have to still face it but writing gave me the power to say what I want, feel what I want and not have to answer anyone’s questions or deal with their complaints. Writing gave me the space I needed to sort thing out. If I didn’t have $10, Writing would still be free. Freedom.

Writing. Simply put, it’s the shit. I have so many notebooks. Old, new, plain, fancy, everything. I love the freedom of choosing which one I want to deal with that day. I can go from PC to phone to good ol pen and paper (my personal favorite). So when I write, I take it seriously. I’m always trying to get better. Always thinking of new things for ME to write about. II t doesn’t matter if the topic has been visited hundreds of times by hundreds of people, It’s MY writing that matters.

For ME, there’s nothing more satisfying than finishing a piece. Its like a sigh of relief. Whether its finishing a post, and email, or a journal entry. To me, that’s what I do it for. Yes, I have a circle of people who love to read what I write. There are others who have no idea that I write. But in the end, I know everyone will know. So whatever it is that YOU do, make sure you set yourself free and take advantage of your freedom. Make sure that when you do it, you can stand by it. Make sure you love what you’re doing.




Tuesday, December 6, 2011

No Love Lost

I finally got another hit of my preferred drug of choice... Ink. I think about each of my pieces before I get it done so I make sure they are all meaningful. Haven't been disappointed yet.
On another random trip to South Beach, I ended up in a tattoo shop once again. This is the outcome...

Monday, September 26, 2011

Miami Dreamin'

Miami Dreamin'. Big Baller Scheamin'.
The Money Is The Motive. The Only Know "Reason".
All Morals Lost Cuz All She Wants Is Prada.
Some Hit Big, The Rest End Up With Nada.
She Gets The Latest Scoop On Where To Be And Who To Know.
Promoters, Athletes, Vixens.. Even Other "Classy" Hoes.
Night After Night, She Hops Table To Table.
Lookin' For The Ones With The Most Expensive Labels.
She Might Luck Up If She Throws The Right Bait.
Couple Drinks, Nights Out, A Few Late Night Dates.
Little Does She Know, They Heard About Her Already.
Won't Take Her Seriously, Never Ever Goin Steady.
They Hit It And Quit It, Leave Her Up For Grabs.
She's Lucky If She Gets A Flight Or A Designer Bag.
Was It All Worth It, U Serving Pussy On A Platter,
The Butt Of All Jokes, The Cause Of The Chatter.
Oh So Sad, Another Brawd With Her Hand Out.
Get It All On Your Own, THAT'S The Way You Stand Out!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

I Think I’m Gonna Relapse…

I want you. More and more of you each and everyday. It’s like I just gotta have you. Who can deny me the joy of having you by my side? NO ONE. I Love this. I LOVE showing you off. I wish I could take you everywhere with me. When you are openly out with me, the looks on people’s faces are PRICELESS. What more can I ask for?? There’s no better feeling than feeling you. Wait.. What am I talking about again?? Oh yea… Back on task. Lol. Long story short, I’m something like addicted to you. I just can’t remove you from my life. I KNOW you don’t mind. I would go to rehab for you but, “Quitting Is For LOSERS!” =) You’re with me for the long haul. Duh!! You’re my tattoos. ((iLOVEink)) Now who’s gonna do like that Young Cash song & Kiss me on my tattoos?? LOL.




Wednesday, February 24, 2010

My Addiction

So easily I hide u but I know u can be seen,
When ur around u take control & I become a fiend
Ur everything I need, So bad yet so Good,
I don’t wana let go but my heart says I should.
This aint the kinda lovin’ that u find everyday,
So every chance I get, I make excuses just 2stay.
Please give me more. No matter morning, noon or nite,
This feeling is way too good so I kno it can’t b right.
Not yet. Don’t go. I’ve nearly reached my peak,
U use me til ur done then U Leave & don’t speak.
No goodybye or see u later. Its silence while u pass.
Im left standing in my glory, then comes the crash.
The desperation is crazy. I have to leave the room,
No fear. Im just trippin. I kno ull be back soon.
Then there’s a knock. I run and ask "who is it?"
The man I wanted to see came by to pay a visit.
We’re at it again & this time u really scare me
God, oh God, please help me if u hear me.
Ur hands r around my neck, im gasping for air.
I thought we were perfect but rite now u don't care.
Just like norma,l its break-ups 2 make-ups baby,
My family sees a problem but I think they’re crazy.
Ur all I need to live, never mind the rest.
I accept u flaws & all, in my eyes ur the best.
My body can’t take it anymore & neither can my heart,
I shoulda known u’d b a problem from the very start.
I’ve turned my back on my family, just to have ur touch,
They just don’t understand y I love u so much.
This has to be the end even though ill cry
I get weaker and weaker each time that I try.
U have that smirk on ur face, this is the last time,
So long, fare well to my partner in crime.
This is the toughest thing that I’ve done in years,
Packing my bags & leaving, all accompanied by tears.
Now ur all gone, except the small piece I had 2 save.
So sad yet so true, u r what took me to my grave.

Addiction is not a game. Please drink responsibly. There's more to life than drugs. The hardest part of life is watching the one u love the most kill them self with u in the room. Every1 needs someone. If u know some1 wit an addiction, PLEASE speak up. This comes from my heart. P.S. NO im not a coke head.. nor have i tried it.