Tonight… I Cried

I don’t think I’ve ever been much of a cry baby since I left elementary school. I’ve always had this “tough as nails” attitude. I guess that’s the Cancer in me. And this year, apparently I was a Leo also so we know how Leo’s are. lol. Well anyway.. I had a long talk with one of the most important people in my life… Chanda. If you can’t put two and two together (Chan…) we’re first cousins on my dad’s side. We speak often but not as often as we should. So when we do speak, its usually a lot to go over. Well with all the catching up we did, I got a bit emotional. Mainly because the story I was telling her Hurt. I guess when you say things out loud, It’s a lot more different than when you are going over it in your head. It felt good though. I keep a smile on my face because I have a lot to be thankful for and a lot to look forward to in life. I don’t purposely “bottle up” my feelings, It’s just me. No need in crying to any and everyone who will listen. I’d rather talk about music or something entertaining. Venting is good for me though. That’s how I got into writing poems and little raps when I was younger. I haven’t in a good while but soon, I’ll start back up. Not just for me but maybe somebody I know (or you know) can use some words or someone to relate to them. No more crying for a while though. That sh*t is wayyy over rated. Lol.

Dade County Bound…

If you’re following me on Twitter or my friend on Face Book, you know I send quite a bit of time in Miami. This has been going on for yrs now.. So it’s not something that just happened. Even my mother asks me if I’m in Miami before we can get into a convo. Whether I’m in North Miami Beach, Sunny Isles Beach, Lil Haiti, Brownsville, South Beach, Downtown…. I’m all over the place and know my way around. With that said, I’ve pretty much decided that I’ll be getting a place in Miami. It’s a completely personal decision and no outside influences helped make this decision. But if you know me, you also know I’m not easily pressured.
With THAT being said, I’m expecting all kinds of visitors as soon as I get settled in. And I probably will spend a lot of time ALONE… in the comfort of my own apt. =) (Wow, that was a completely contradictory statement. LOL.) I already have this scenario in my head that once I move, I can get a few things cleared up.. I can relax.. And most importantly, I don’t have to answer my door if I don’t want to. I miss saying that. I have a goal in mind so… I’ll slowly be making my way downtown to my condo with a orgasmic view of the city. You only live once and I intend on living it up as best I can. Youuuuu Feellll Meeee!?!??! (DJ Dirt Dawg voice)
If you have anything negative to say about this decision, just know I don’t care… =) Unless you’re paying rent, “Uhhh… I’m sorry, were you saying something??” hehe
Now Playing – Live Fast, Die Young ((Rick Ross ft. Kanye West))

I’ll Be Moving On…

I’ll keep this short and sweet…
Ok… This may be long over due but I operate on my OWN terms. I think I’m FINALLY ready to let go of the past. I’m not going to go into details but just know it’s worth it. I’m an understanding and forgiving person but I’m not going to waste valuable time on something that not there. SO with THAT being said,

“I wish you well. I wish you wealth. I wish you life. I wish you health. I wish you right, cuz I aint wrong. & You the reason why I wrote this fuxxin’ song!”

Now Playing: Ghost Wridah ((Kill You In My Nightmares))

BBM Blast…

So we all can agree that BBM Blasts can be THE single-handedly most annoying thing ever! Especially the ones promoting parties in states you don’t live in. Can’t forget the “Who’s up?! What yall doin?? Talk to me” Blasts. Like seriously… get a life!! lol. But today, I got the same blast about 6 times and each time I read it, It stuck out more in my mind. I mean to the point I’m going to highlight it in my personal Bible.

Revelation 3:8
When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, Trust Him fully and let go. Only one of two thing will happen. Either He’ll catch you when you fall or He’ll teach you how to fly. God closes doors no man can open and opens doors no man can close.

This in particular touched me because if you read my post about Karma… I talked about being on the edge of the cliff and someone letting you stand there.

My example is: There's someone on a cliff reaching out for your help and instead of extending your arm, you just look at them and walk away.

But I never thought about God leading me there and giving me one of the two options. So tonight, we’ll talk. I know I’ve been calling on him a lot lately but I’ve always had a good relationship with Him. Just wanted to share that. =)

Karma...

If I don't believe in ANYthing else... I believe in Karma. Both Good & Bad. This is how I look at it.. All the things you do in life.. The WILL come back to you in one way or the other. So while you're out doing evil things and trying to ruin peoples lives or taking advantage of people so that your situation works out in your favor... Its already in the works to be returned to you. It may not happen right away, but please believe its coming. "Everything u done to me already been done to you!" LOL.
But seriously. I don't sweat anything anymore. I know everyone has their time to pay up. I've never been a bitter person or the type to hold grudges for ever because I figure, if I can forgive my mom for all the things she put me through, I can get past anything. And anyone who knows Chantel, KNOWS my character and the type of person I am. I'm not a person of multiple personalities but when you know *Me* You usually know a lot more about me & my story.
Neway... My example is: There's someone on a cliff reaching out for your help and instead of extending your arm, you just look at them and walk away. I see it happen all to often. Both personally and with people I know. In most situations, right & wrong are very easy to distinguish. Its just a matter of if you will do the right thing.

I say that to say this...
"Karma Is A Bitch.. But I Treat Her Like A Queen. Play Fair Or Get FUXXED." =)

Exposed….

  So this morning, I noticed some foul shit on Twitter. A friend of mine had a picture on Twitter… that she didn’t put up. So naturally, I ask her (Not RT it) & of courseeee It wasn’t supposed to be there. It was a nice looking, not raunchy pic but either way, it was not intended for the whole Twitter world to see it. The SUPER foul part is it was her ex who did it. Badd Chicks usually attract psycho paths… I’m not sure the chemistry that’s involved but somehow, It happens that way. Niggas I tell you!! Can’t we all just break up, move on and continue living life?? And THIS is why I don’t send pictures of myself. Yes, I’m guilty of sending some interesting pix to my ex but he has NEVER been a Pussy Nigga… And besides that, I know all of his important info so it wouldn’t be hard to destroy his life. I don’t think he’d do that anyway.

SO… I say THAT to say THIS.. If you want to see me naked… You must see me in person. Thanks. =)

“Pussy Niggas Don’t Change” - Vee

In Love With My Future…

Ya’ll probably see my BBM status or Twitter update saying this quite often. There’s a GREAT reason behind it. Not only am I REALLY In Love With My Future.. I’m supporting #TheNewMiami & GhostWridah. If you’re not familiar, He’s an extremely talented artist out of Miami, Fl. I’ve been following him for about 6months months now & I’m definitely blown away. I think Prima (of iBlog126) posted his “Red Bottoms” record and I fell in love with his style (If you’re looking for that D-Boy, Hood shit.. This is NOT what you’re looking for). That in turn led to me downloading 305 & Heartbreaks which is a remake of Kanye’s album. His latest project, “In Love With My Future” was released a few hours ago and I’m super excited. It feels like I’ve been waiting forever but I’m sure its well worth the wait. As soon as my neighbor’s Wi-Fi acts right, I’ll be able to enjoy it also. =) LOL. & Shout out to the artist behind this album cover work! I LOVE IT!!
Download Here ---> In Love With My Future – GhostWridah
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Check out his website ---> www.GhostWridah.com