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Showing posts with label Let The Church Say.... Show all posts

Monday, September 15, 2014

Freedom

Every once in a while, I’ll ask a few of my friends for a topic to write about. So when I asked last night, I received a few way different ideas. Jay told me to write about Freedom. Naturally, I’m like WTF? That’s not really specific. In turn he said, “The freedom of bettering yourself. Not holding yourself back”. A light blub came on as soon as I read that message.

The thing about writing is that there’s no wrong way to say how YOU feel. When you write, they may not appreciate your honesty or opinion but it’s yours and you own that shit. How can you tell me what I’m saying isn’t important? I don’t give a damn if YOU think it isn’t because when I wrote it, it meant something to me. I may write fast but if I write about it, I’ve put a lot of thought and energy into it. I don’t write for the likes or RT’s. Shit, most of the stuff doesn’t even get RT’s. But it may be the one thing that one person who read it needed to hear.

There’s not enough time in the day or care in the world for me to want to sugar coat things. If I write it, its usually in raw form. It’s extremely rare for me to alter anything because of how it will be perceived. Take it or leave it. You love it, hate it or feel indifferently about the topic at a hand.

It took me quite some time to start the project that I’m working on. Not because I didn’t have anything to talk about but I was giving too much of a damn about what people would think. Not strangers because I never really give a fuck about what people who don’t personally know me think. People as in MY people. People I speak to daily, weekly, monthly, ever. People who know me. Or people who think they do. How can I let people take away my freedom? Why would I? I knew that what I had to say was worth way more than an opinion. I knew that since I was a child, writing was my outlet. Writing was my savior. Writing set me free from any and everything that was wrong. Yes, I’d have to still face it but writing gave me the power to say what I want, feel what I want and not have to answer anyone’s questions or deal with their complaints. Writing gave me the space I needed to sort thing out. If I didn’t have $10, Writing would still be free. Freedom.

Writing. Simply put, it’s the shit. I have so many notebooks. Old, new, plain, fancy, everything. I love the freedom of choosing which one I want to deal with that day. I can go from PC to phone to good ol pen and paper (my personal favorite). So when I write, I take it seriously. I’m always trying to get better. Always thinking of new things for ME to write about. II t doesn’t matter if the topic has been visited hundreds of times by hundreds of people, It’s MY writing that matters.

For ME, there’s nothing more satisfying than finishing a piece. Its like a sigh of relief. Whether its finishing a post, and email, or a journal entry. To me, that’s what I do it for. Yes, I have a circle of people who love to read what I write. There are others who have no idea that I write. But in the end, I know everyone will know. So whatever it is that YOU do, make sure you set yourself free and take advantage of your freedom. Make sure that when you do it, you can stand by it. Make sure you love what you’re doing.




Saturday, September 6, 2014

Brain Bang - Round 2

It was only a matter of time after you had entered my mind that you'd make the next entry. You had just the right touch to unlock the Pearly Gates. 
You knocked. You entered. You're really here. Flesh to flesh. Face to face. 
You seem colossal next to my small frame. I'm swallowed by your warm embrace.  
The level of comfort was so natural. You take your time but made your eagerness known. 
The firmness of your gentle voice. The intensity of your soft touch. 
And just like that, still waters began to roar. Waves crashed against the shore. 
Your words still guide and manipulate my mind, body and soul. Is it possible for two familiar strangers to really be this aligned?
The television plays at a medium tone. The bathroom light peaks around the corner. With phones beeping, buzzing and ringing, this concentration can't be broken. 
I'd love to see your face but at the moment you're having deep convo with my lower lips. Explicitly speaking to my inner soul. Telling and showing us all of the things you're capable of doing. All of the feelings you are capable of evoking. By the feel of things, I think you may have bilingually explained it all in full detail.
They say the tongue is a powerful weapon but you've decided to use it for good instead of evil. You use it to locate the treasure that had been longing to be found. Unlocking a liquid language that only better prepares us for what has yet to cum. 
We transition. 
Somehow, we end up becoming a human display of every one's favorite numbers. 
Seems like we're ready but not until I show you the same appreciation that you've shown me. It's only right.
It's your turn to relax. A kiss on the head is an action of endearment. Sometimes you have to ease your way into (or onto) a situation. 
It's not long before we say "Fuck this". 
We meant that in every sense of the word. Mentally and physically. 
Who would've thought that the mental and physical would be so close? 
We knew this would be explosive but this was more than sexing. This was a meeting of both our bodies and minds. 
For every stroke the body took, the mind took two. The intensity was too real. 
When the time came, so did we. There was no denying or hiding this. The evidence was obvious. 
As the electric leg spasms slow down to a slow twitch, the tunnel vision starts to widen. The surrounds begin to reappear. Sounds now audible. 
You walk away only to return with a warm washcloth. You are definitely the real MVP. 
This might be the real thing. 
And the day we should meet again, I'll have no expectations because I know whether everything or nothing should happen, the connection is better than any physical encounter. 
BUT... that doesn't mean it shouldn't happen again and again and again.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Tainted

Love once so innocent. So pure. So genuine.

Now so tainted. So evil. So detrimental.

Much of a burden.

All love isn't “good love”. I don’t need THAT love.

Let me live. Let me breathe. Let me prosper & be happy.

Please.

Love like life depends on it.

It does. Just not ours.

Something we’ve longed for & never wanted to forget.

Something so powerful. Moving mountains was a breeze.

Sudden change.

Air turned still. Nights got cold. Skies turned gray.

Prepare for this storm.

Feels the wrath.

No love like that of a Wo(man) scorned.

You don’t always get what you put in or what you want.

But you WILL get something, nonetheless.

Lessons may be the greatest.

When we walk away from each other, don’t make this hard.

Don’t kill me. I don’t want to die.

Just as those before & after me, let me live.

Move on & keep moving.

Become idle at your own risk.

Lets not blame. Lets not point. Lets love..

Lets love someone other than each other.

Let me love me first.

Priority.

Tainted as can be, I’ll still love after you as I did before.

Just one step closer to the one who was made for me.

Have I already met my match or is that who is coming up behind you?

Don’t block my view.

Let me live.

So tainted yet the next one wont pay for your mistakes.

Love.




Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Price Of Friendship

 

 

The price of friendship. You earn it and lend it. Trying to get it back may break it or mend it. So before selling yourself short, please watch how you spend it.

The price may be high as gold or as low as gum, only good when its good and only fun when its fun. In the meantime, in between time, the communication is off. What’s the reconnection fee? How much will it cost?

The foundation was strong, it took years to build. Yet the damage is done, the milk has spilled. To clean it up or cry? That is the question. This is definitely one of life’s major lessons.

No need for a receipt, no exchange or return. We’ll just work it out, no need to let it burn. Supply & demand, lets level the turf. No amount of money will determine our worth.

Where’s the mediator? We need a neutral being. We only hear what we hear. Only see what we’re seeing. No choosing side. No placing blame. Just a common ground is the reason we came.

We have to get right before its all too late. Only time will reveal this friendship’s fate. So if you listen to me then I’ll listen to you. The moral if the story is, “I love you, Boo!”

End Note: Nobody is perfect so there’s no way a relationship or friendship can be. Sometimes too much time together and not enough time apart will put the ultimate strain on it but together, everybody can get it right. Personalities clash but hey, get with it or get lost. Some “situations” deserve to be let go but make sure you have a damn good reason. Loyalty over royalty… just don’t interfere with my livelihood.




Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Too Little, Too Late

They always say that you shouldn’t put off for tomorrow what can & should be done today. I think that’s how the quote goes. When I got up this morning, It felt like any other day. I wished my cousin a happy birthday and left the house. I looked at Twitter and noticed that a girl I follow & know through mutual friends had mentioned that she lost her mother a year ago today. I wanted to say something to her but all I could come up with was a generic tweet…

8:32am: “With all the losses I’ve experienced… I still don’t know the right words to say to others when they lose someone. :/”

I went to work and began my shift. While away from my desk, I noticed I had a missed call and text from my cousin. As I was replying, another cousin called so I picked up & immediately I knew something was wrong. The first thing she asked was if I had spoken to my mother. My heart dropped to the floor. When I told her no… She told me that my mom had found my grandfather this morning when she woke up. He was unresponsive. See the thing is, she had just gotten up to NY from Charlotte to help take care of him. We had found out he had liver cancer literally 2 weeks ago. She and my aunt had been there around the clock since then.

It freaked me out a bit when I thought into it a little deeper. It almost seemed as if he waited until he got his two baby girls together to go in peace. I can’t imagine how my mother feels being the one to be there with him. However, I am happy that they were able to see each other before he was taken home. I won’t question God’s ways but I wish I would have done things differently. She told me to call him the day she found out but I kept putting it off. I wanted to know more about his progress and not ask too many questions. I should have. If I knew yesterday what was going to happen today, I would have done more. I’m sure he knows my heart and he knows I think about him everyday and wish I would have called. Shit just sucks.

As kids, my cousin and I were his little princesses. We always got SO excited when Grandpa Tootsie came around. Not only was he cool, he always had envelopes full of money for us. So many memories that I wish could have been more. We always spoke through emails and recently through Facebook but I never got the chance to go back to his apartment and talk. Now, that option is no longer there.

Too Little, Too Late…

If you have a relative you rarely speak to, send a text, email, call, something. You never know when your last time speaking to them will be.

Rest In Peace Newton Lightfoot or to us, Grandpa Toostie




Thursday, December 15, 2011

Drowned

I keep asking
You keep yelling
I'm just speaking
You're just yelling
Eyes start to well
I have no choice
Tears start to roll
When u raise your voice
All out of things to say
This bridge must be burned
No more tolls to pay
Just life lessons learned
Like a thief in the night
You stole my heart and ran
I tried to put up a fight
This wasn't apart of the plan
Leave me be
Put my heart down
Its thrown out to sea
Just let this love drown

Monday, October 31, 2011

Gone...

Its what u know best.... Lie, cheat & deceive...
U tell so many lies, I think I'm starting to believe.
The more I think about it, I see it's you I don't need.
No more love locked down, it's time to break free.
Free from your control, free from your reign.
Free to the heartache, free from the pain.
Free from the bullshit free from times u said you'd change.
Free from letting me down. Free from the same old same.
Do u even feel guilty or is it just another day?
U don't get tired of these games that u play?
U can apologize but that won't  make it okay.
U can wipe away my tears but it won't take them away.
What it once was may be gone but not forgotten.
Let me salvage what's left I this heart turned rotten.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Excuses

Excuse the excuses..
Many words so useless..
I would've said yes but the honest to goodness truth is...
I was only playing, never knew it'd come to THIS..
Trying to make it painless, I'm really not so ruthless..
It's sorta complicated but I'm trying to make this lucid..
Gotta let it go, this here is so stupid..
You got hit with a stray arrow, I say we just blame Cupid..
What I've been trying to say is "It's not YOU, Its ME"..
I flip flop back and forth, Ain't it plain to see?
The girl you really want is not who's lives in me..
I'll only weigh you down, just set yourself free..
I'm not the one for you, you need someone better..
That's the easy way out, no thinking of something clever..
Never answer calls, I rather write you this letter..
You want to hang out but I'm available next never..
No one is wrong, no one is right..
I say we just be cool, no need for the fight..
We just wont "BE".. Not a vision in sight..
Do your thing, be happy.. Let your jet take flight..
Excuse the excuses..
Many words so useless
My Bad...

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

@SahSah2Real - A Cry For Change

One thing that I always say I respect about this man, regardless of anything that goes on, he always stays true to himself. In the year or two that I've know him, he's always been in his own lane and NEVER follows what trend these other rappers be on. Im not knocking anyone's hustle but originality will take you far. People don't want to ALWAYS hear about hoes and money because in reality, everybody doesn't have it so they need something they can relate to.

This dropped today and I think it was his 1st Spoken Word type recording. I love it. Great job! Some people need to hear it. Hopefully, It reaches the right people/person.

@SahSah2Real
@SahSahWorld

Link Below:
Listen & Download: A Cry For Change

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

The Journey...

U can't just tell me, u gon have to show me..
But Not too quick, explore my body slowly..
You're G5 flyin, I have a strip for u to land on..
No formal training, you gon learn this lesson Hands On..
U tell me that u want it & show me that u like it..
Come & sip this love punch, I promise not to spike it..
Slow it down then speed it up, I like this change of pace..
No hiding behind pillows, you want to see this face..
Love faces gon wild, mind blown, I'm in extasy..
I love it when u give your all while sexing me..
Turn around, toot it up. I can handle what u slangin..
Intense.. So serious, I can tell you aint playin..
Climax, there it is.. We get up & go shower..
Rest up, have a drink then back at it in an hour..

Monday, September 26, 2011

Miami Dreamin'

Miami Dreamin'. Big Baller Scheamin'.
The Money Is The Motive. The Only Know "Reason".
All Morals Lost Cuz All She Wants Is Prada.
Some Hit Big, The Rest End Up With Nada.
She Gets The Latest Scoop On Where To Be And Who To Know.
Promoters, Athletes, Vixens.. Even Other "Classy" Hoes.
Night After Night, She Hops Table To Table.
Lookin' For The Ones With The Most Expensive Labels.
She Might Luck Up If She Throws The Right Bait.
Couple Drinks, Nights Out, A Few Late Night Dates.
Little Does She Know, They Heard About Her Already.
Won't Take Her Seriously, Never Ever Goin Steady.
They Hit It And Quit It, Leave Her Up For Grabs.
She's Lucky If She Gets A Flight Or A Designer Bag.
Was It All Worth It, U Serving Pussy On A Platter,
The Butt Of All Jokes, The Cause Of The Chatter.
Oh So Sad, Another Brawd With Her Hand Out.
Get It All On Your Own, THAT'S The Way You Stand Out!

Friday, September 9, 2011

L.O.Y.A.L.T.Y.

Listen to me when I say, this shit doesn’t come easy. Before you find the right one, a few have to do you greasy. The shock leaves you stuck, no air, a lot of wheezing. Then You pick it all apart and try to find a valid reason.


One time, you’re the fool. More than that, its on me. Everything is “I, I, I” when it used to be all “We”. Eyes wide shut, having visions but cant see. Now the picture’s getting clearer and U know this wont be.


You lead me on each waking day & each sleeping night. Should’ve followed my gut when I felt this wasn’t right. Will you miss me if I’m gone? Out of mind when out of sight. I can stay and roll around but those fleas always bite.


A lot of mixed signals, things aint always what they seem. This over drawn nightmare has killed my last dream. There is never the option of jumping team to team. But you’re riding on the fence, walking on a thin beam.


Like we’ve never met before, you treat me like a stranger.What we once had, is now in complete danger. So many words can be used to express this wild anger. We need to hang it up quick, somebody go get a hanger.


Time after time after time, we keep reliving the drama. Then hearts get hurt & put through severe trauma. I knew it was a bad thing, shoulda listened to my momma. Shits getting too hot, every convo is a sauna.


You’re full of run on sentences, Its really annoying me. You don’t do shit to be treated like royalty. Live & you learn, sometimes you gotta let it be. Now tell me what the fck you people know about LOYALTY??




Inferno…

** Bored at work yesterday and this just came to mind… Nothing all wordy or fancy.. just Real Rap Raw! lol.

When things simmer down, they add fuel to the fire.
I hope you find the attention that you crave & desire.
Its not something brand new, there's been situations prior.
I won't dress this up, No ecclesiastical attire.
We live & let go, there's no reason to hold fast
Time is of the essence, no dwelling on the past
Some things are better broken, no need for the cast
The once beautiful window is now shattered glass.
Its no price of friendship but is sure aint free.
It costs to be the boss & it sure aint cheap.
Be careful what you say, for the wrong words may seep
What you've worked so hard for, may end up floating in the deep.
You win some, you lose some. Life's a constant gamble.
Its never really smart to bite off more than you can handle.
The letters are there, like the soup from Campbell's.
But as easy as you've made it, things can end up in shambles.
I haven't said much, I've learned verbal restraint.
There are no hard feelings, & not complaint.
Nobody is perfect, I never claimed to be a saint.
No 3-second violations, so get out of the paint.




Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Cuffing Season Application

As the weather starts to cool off and the leaves start to change (Well... up north they're changing), cuffing season begins. The Summer Time Thirst starts to simmer down and those bathing suit brawds don't look as appealing when they're fully clothed.

Here's a little guideline to follow so that your process will be that much more easier.

S/O to @Jimmy3arly tho for the inspiration.. LOL

** Ramen noodles. Sorry.. I don't have any packs at home to spell check against. LOL







Thursday, July 21, 2011

The Art Of "Hoe"...

The term "Hoe" is thrown around VERY loosely. Everyday situations, heated debates, casual convo and in tons of other cases, you or whomever you're discussing can be called a hoe. What is the REAL meaning of a hoe? If one has hoe tendencies, does that make them a hoe or just hoe-like?

This is not really a breakdown but just some of MY thoughts on a hoe.

1 - If you smash more than two people out the same click, I'd like to think that's some hoe boderline shit. I say borderline ONLY because u could've been unaware that they were ppls. But whatevs.

2 - Smashing someone when you first meet (or very soon after) them doesn't mean that you're a hoe. U just know what u want and don't feel like wasting a bunch of time. HOWEVER, if you're smashing EVERYONE you meet when you meet them, THAT is some hoe shit.

2.5 - People meet through mutual friends, exchange #'s, BBMs, DMs, whatever and after a while u feel like yall cool. Smash at your own will.

3 - IDGAF what yall say, as a female... you KNOW who u are willing (or not) to give it up to, off rip. How yall vibe after that helps determine how much of a chance he still has, if any. Just because he's cute or got alot doesn't mean its a sure thing. I personally DGAF what u have cuz it aint mine anyway. If you go all out is based on how much he cooperates.

4 - Meeting people on social sites doesn't make u a hoe... Fuckin em all does. And besides, If u can't meet people at the club, church or social sites, where the fck ya'll meeting people at?

5 - While you hoes fckin for the FREE, some hoes got smart and made a living off of it. Guess you might as well get more than a nut out of it cuz I KNOW some of these dudes can't deliver even that much.

6 - If you're fckin your homegirls BD, man, FWB, whatever, I'd like to say thats hoe shit. IDGAF how fine a nigga is, if u fckin my friend... no can do. If we don't know thats on us but once we find out... Adios.

7 - I dont believe there are THAT many people in this world who are only on one hand with their body count unless they started yesterday. Ex. A girl is 25... she started at 16... I assume she has like 12 bodies. Do the math. That alil more than two people a year. Now calculate your own shit. Thanks. Shut up.

8 - There is no specific number of people u have to smash to be a hoe. Just the circumstance and manner in which u bring about the smashage.

9 - No strings attached, Friends with benefits, or just being cutty buddies don't make you a hoe. You just dont see yourself fit for a relationship at the moment. Nothing wrong with that. Why lie? Just keep it 100. Shit, yall might end up being made for each other. lol.



Encore - Men can be hoes too. We expect yall to fck everything, even if its nothing more. We expect yall to have a phonebook full of pussy on demand. If all your homeboys keep a flock of bitches, you're kinda guilty by association. Yall do it to females so the feeling is mutual. That's just the way it is. More importantly, If you on that Marvin's Room shit... You too are a hoe, sir. Any man who interferes with another man's quantity of pussy... is a hoe. Mind your fckin business. OR if you're tellin all your homeboys the play by play down to every possession and turnover, you're a hoe ass nigga and dont deserve anymore pussy.

Play innocent all you want, they gon call u a hoe anyway. Lol.

Long story short, U can be a simple hoe or a complicated hoe but you're still a hoe nonetheless. Im not here to judge cuz I frankly don't care who you're fckin. Yo miles dont make mine go up. I know where I stand and im ok with that.

& remember... a hit dog gon hollaaaa!!!!

Hoe on Hoes!!!

(Will edit as needed)

Monday, July 4, 2011

The Pleasure Was All Mine...

I can honestly say I'm disgusted with certain people who are in my life. That goes for family and "friends" alike The difference is, I didnt have an option with family. Friends... that's all me so you live and you learn.

What I don't like is when you help someone and make a big deal about it. Some people can only repay you what you gave them or a sincere "Thank you" and life long friendship. Anything more is pushing it.  If you're going to complain about helping people or expect a fcking parade, you have life all misconstrued. When most people are in need, they simply go without. In certain cases, your help is vital for their survival. You bragging about it only makes people wonder if you do things just to talk about it or to throw it in someones face. Most of the favors or helping hands I lend are forgotten. I don't log it, I just do it and continue with my life. That's how it should be. Everyone is not like me though. I help people because I'm a kind-hearted person and I want to see people do better. 

In a nut-shell.. Thanks for the "favors" or helping hands. Your assistance is no longer needed or wanted.

Don't be shady! Don't complain! Or simply Don't do any favors!

You'll probably mess up your own blessings but who's blessings I know??

People will probably snitch and/or think this is about them but who fcking cares?

The Pleasure Was All Mine...  Bump you & Good Day!

*Drops Mic*

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Goin Steady

This song isn't the newest but it gets the point across.

For some reason guys seem to think ALL females want to be tied down and all attached. *blink blink* That's usually not the case but alot of guys have a hard time keeping it 100 and just gettin to the point. As a female, I'd prefer to know what u are trying to make it instead of sending mixed signals then suddenly act like I'm crazy and want to marry u. Everybody doesn't want a relationship and everybody wont be ok with being Friends w/ Benefits or cutty buddies. You'd be surprised how many dont mind. Much less headaches, broken hearts or arguments. But thats just MY opinion.

(I guess this is why Rocko & Monica didn't work out.. But who's relationship I know?)

The moral of the story is....

Just play your part and vibe up, home boy! LOL



Monday, June 27, 2011

For Colored Men - @SahSah2Real

**I didn't write this. A good friend of mine did and I just wanted to share it**

Nothing was been changed, edited or altered. This is the raw post.

@SahSah2Real <---- Follow The Author

FOR COLORED MEN FOR COLORED MEN
CRAZY HOW OUR MINDSET IS BASED ON TRENDS
PULL YA PANTS UP N WALK WIT YA HEAD UP
IN LIFE U ARE GUARANTEED A FEW MESS UPS
IF I KILL I TOOK AWAY FROM LIFE
N IF I SEEK DEN I SHALL FIND
GLORY TO GOD N GOD BE THE GLORY
THE FLOOR IS OPEN N EVERYBODY GOT A STORY
LET'S BE DERE FOR OUR KIDS N RAISE DEM RIGHT
ITS BETTER TO WALK BY FAITH DEN TO WALK BY SIGHT
IN MY WORLD I BELIEVE DAT A WOMAN SHOULD COME 1ST
N I HATE DAT I GOTTA JUDGE HER BY DA LENGTH OF HER SKIRT
WE REALLY AT WAR WIT OURSELVES AS A RACE
TOO MANY JUDGES N NOT ENOUGH LAWYERS LET DAT MARINATE
I'm TALKIN TO U DAT WILL HIT A WOMAN
I'm TALKIN TO U DAT WILL ABANDONED UR CHILD
I'm TALKIN TO U DAT WILL FALL FOR ANYTHING
I'm TALKIN TO ALL MEN DAT DON'T STAND FOR NOTHIN
A FEW WILL ASK WHO I WROTE THIS FOR N I WILL SIMPLY REPLY I WROTE THIS FOR OUR COLORED MEN

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Rest In Peace Ashley McThay

Ash CashIf you knew Ashley, you know how genuine she was. She would tell you in a heartbeat if you were being “messy”. For that, everyone loved her.
Last week, my friend was called home way before we wanted. I still find myself thinking about it but seeing her at her viewing with that glow made me more at peace with the situation. She did her part and touched hundreds of lives. Although, people decided to almost ruin HER day, she watched over us as those 6 or so shots rang out in the darkness.
I can still hear her getting all excited about going out. Or asking where her dawg Ev at. Lol. When I cut my hair she couldn’t believe it. She said “Chan!! Nawwww… u cut it?? U crazy! I thought you would NEVERRR cut yo hair!!”
Such is a beautiful person. She had a lot of people who loved/love her and she will continue to influence lives even though she is no longer physically here.
Thank you all for the donations. Together, we were able to cover Ashley’s funeral costs. Such a blessing.
Until we meet again.
We Love Ash Cash
(side note) OMG… as I type this, I decided to check my files ONE more time to find some missing pix of Ash, Jea & I… I FOUND EM!!! im sooo happy!
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Untitled…

The things you feed me are not necessarily what I like..
But since I’m hungry, I can't help but take a bite.
Thirsty for more than what this watered down love is..
I need something more. A little pop. A little fizz..
Jaded by the thought of holding you.. Having u
But now my hearts cold, I dream of grabbing you.. Stabbing you..
Not with a knife but these words poke holes..
So swift, so deadly.. These words pierce souls.
See when I said yes, that meant NO to the lies. No to the heartache. No more asking why's.
Its break ups to make ups.. No to the cries. There u go leaving. No more of your goodbyes.
Tired of the fussing. Tired of the screaming..
Tired of when shit gets tough, you end up leaving.
What do we do? Do we try to get along?
Lethal words back & forth. Yea we're both living wrong..
Fuck up after fuck up, I'm tired of chasing u.
I need to cut my loss, I'd be better off replacing u.
Sometimes I feel like we just together with no purpose...
Relationship faded. This shit is just so hopeless..
Problem & solution.. I think I got a bit smarter.
But when I take a closer look, this whole thing gets harder.
So many lonely nights coming, a dark road ahead
It’ll take time to get used to being alone in this bed.
Would it be much easier to say fuck it, just give up hope?
I thought if I lost you I'd die, but I been cut that rope..
Got down from the chair, there will be no kickin..
Gotta get back on my grind, I know time is ticking..
Can't waste another second, nor minute, nor hour..
I think I got a fresh breath from this sweet love turned sour.