Miami Dreamin'

Miami Dreamin'. Big Baller Scheamin'.

The Money Is The Motive. The Only Know "Reason".

All Morals Lost Cuz All She Wants Is Prada.

Some Hit Big, The Rest End Up With Nada.

She Gets The Latest Scoop On Where To Be And Who To Know.

Promoters, Athletes, Vixens.. Even Other "Classy" Hoes.

Night After Night, She Hops Table To Table.

Lookin' For The Ones With The Most Expensive Labels.

She Might Luck Up If She Throws The Right Bait.

Couple Drinks, Nights Out, A Few Late Night Dates.
Little Does She Know, They Heard About Her Already.

Won't Take Her Seriously, Never Ever Goin Steady.

They Hit It And Quit It, Leave Her Up For Grabs.

She's Lucky If She Gets A Flight Or A Designer Bag.

Was It All Worth It, U Serving Pussy On A Platter,

The Butt Of All Jokes, The Cause Of The Chatter.

Oh So Sad, Another Brawd With Her Hand Out.

Get It All On Your Own, THAT'S The Way You Stand Out!

L.O.Y.A.L.T.Y.

Listen to me when I say, this shit doesn’t come easy. Before you find the right one, a few have to do you greasy. The shock leaves you stuck, no air, a lot of wheezing. Then You pick it all apart and try to find a valid reason.


One time, you’re the fool. More than that, its on me. Everything is “I, I, I” when it used to be all “We”. Eyes wide shut, having visions but cant see. Now the picture’s getting clearer and U know this wont be.


You lead me on each waking day & each sleeping night. Should’ve followed my gut when I felt this wasn’t right. Will you miss me if I’m gone? Out of mind when out of sight. I can stay and roll around but those fleas always bite.


A lot of mixed signals, things aint always what they seem. This over drawn nightmare has killed my last dream. There is never the option of jumping team to team. But you’re riding on the fence, walking on a thin beam.


Like we’ve never met before, you treat me like a stranger.What we once had, is now in complete danger. So many words can be used to express this wild anger. We need to hang it up quick, somebody go get a hanger.


Time after time after time, we keep reliving the drama. Then hearts get hurt & put through severe trauma. I knew it was a bad thing, shoulda listened to my momma. Shits getting too hot, every convo is a sauna.


You’re full of run on sentences, Its really annoying me. You don’t do shit to be treated like royalty. Live & you learn, sometimes you gotta let it be. Now tell me what the fck you people know about LOYALTY??

The Hooptie!!

“Mine all Blue with the big dents… Cant wait to go to Swap and get some damn tints!!” – Chan
“I go fast in these muthafuxxin lanes nigga!!!” - Chan
YES!!! I FINALLY got another car (a week after my bday). Its been 1 year… 8months & 2 weeks since i ever so gracefully lost control after hydroplaning in the express lanes leaving Dade at 2am. Oh.. I was on my way to drop my car off & get my bag so i can fly 2 NY 4 a few hrs & come back. SMFH!
Its not my lil pretty brand new Civic but it rides out!! lol. After my accident, things went crazy. But I still say it was a blessing in disguise. I’m once again happy though. THATS the important part.
No pictures please!! Not yet at least.
After several failed attempts to get a car… It finally happened. And of course that was a semi- #FAIL also. Womp womp!! I gave them my last $1500 & drove off… only to break down the NEXT DAY!! SMFH. Blah. $300 and a new fuel pump later… I’m slidinnnnn *Brisco voice* lol.
Thanks you all ( you know who you are) for helping me out. Thank the public transpo systems of Palm Beach, Broward & Dade (even though I only used the Dade buses 2 times lol.)
It actually feels GREAT not having any car payments. Even though I’d take a more reliable car any day! I’ll ride out with the Hoop for a little bit then upgrade when the time is right or it breaks down.. which ever happens first lol.
Catch me in traffic Bitchesssss!!!! =) Woot Woot!!

Break Up Song…

“Its Over. She Got Colder Now. Can’t Locate Where Her Heart Is…”

No

matter how long it’s been, I think the hardest part of breaking up is having to meet someone new. I guess we become so content with the person we’ve been with and really don’t care to add anything to the mix while we’re subtracting. If it was up to me, I’d talk to the same person forever. Not because I’m anti-social but more because I like some level of uniformity and consistency. But then again, I guess that’s why people get married. *shrugs*

Example: I’ve met probably a half dozen people since my official break up with E*A & guess what… They all suck for the most part. Its not that I don’t take people seriously… well maybe that is my problem. lol. If I can’t have the real thing, I still wont settle for less. Not trying to compare anyone but thinking realistically, Who the hell wants to downgrade by THAT much??

No offense but when you’re used to certain things, It’s kinda hard to just go with out. Maybe that’s what I need though. Maybe I’m supposed to switch it up and move on to something fresh and new. If you know me & knew the situation, you know that there’s a certain level of respect and love that can never be lost for this man. So when I say ((o9.2o.o5)), It’s more than just a date.

So when I hear Wale’s ((Break Up Song)) It touches a certain spot. If you don’t like it… I don’t give a damn! *Pops Voice* Anyway… Part of me wishes things were better. The other part wants to not care. Another part is just confused. #JudgeMeIfUWant But who da fugg is you?!

((No Love Lost))

Karma...

If I don't believe in ANYthing else... I believe in Karma. Both Good & Bad. This is how I look at it.. All the things you do in life.. The WILL come back to you in one way or the other. So while you're out doing evil things and trying to ruin peoples lives or taking advantage of people so that your situation works out in your favor... Its already in the works to be returned to you. It may not happen right away, but please believe its coming. "Everything u done to me already been done to you!" LOL.
But seriously. I don't sweat anything anymore. I know everyone has their time to pay up. I've never been a bitter person or the type to hold grudges for ever because I figure, if I can forgive my mom for all the things she put me through, I can get past anything. And anyone who knows Chantel, KNOWS my character and the type of person I am. I'm not a person of multiple personalities but when you know *Me* You usually know a lot more about me & my story.
Neway... My example is: There's someone on a cliff reaching out for your help and instead of extending your arm, you just look at them and walk away. I see it happen all to often. Both personally and with people I know. In most situations, right & wrong are very easy to distinguish. Its just a matter of if you will do the right thing.

I say that to say this...
"Karma Is A Bitch.. But I Treat Her Like A Queen. Play Fair Or Get FUXXED." =)

Exposed….

  So this morning, I noticed some foul shit on Twitter. A friend of mine had a picture on Twitter… that she didn’t put up. So naturally, I ask her (Not RT it) & of courseeee It wasn’t supposed to be there. It was a nice looking, not raunchy pic but either way, it was not intended for the whole Twitter world to see it. The SUPER foul part is it was her ex who did it. Badd Chicks usually attract psycho paths… I’m not sure the chemistry that’s involved but somehow, It happens that way. Niggas I tell you!! Can’t we all just break up, move on and continue living life?? And THIS is why I don’t send pictures of myself. Yes, I’m guilty of sending some interesting pix to my ex but he has NEVER been a Pussy Nigga… And besides that, I know all of his important info so it wouldn’t be hard to destroy his life. I don’t think he’d do that anyway.

SO… I say THAT to say THIS.. If you want to see me naked… You must see me in person. Thanks. =)

“Pussy Niggas Don’t Change” - Vee

Hospitalized!!!

OMFG!! I can’t believe this shit. After DYING to go back 2 Bubba Gump Shrimp Company, we go. So, Its already started off as a bad night when we couldn't find decent parking because of the Haitian Festival. Then the waiter kept forgetting parts of our order. I finish my shrimp and then realize that I don't feel so good. I’m thinking the shrimps didn't sit right and prepare 2 hit the bathroom when I get home. “Not So Much” *Borat voice* We walk towards Fat Tuesday’s and I think I’m gonna skip my drink. As we walk, my tongue and ears start itching. We all laugh and keep going. Then my head & waist starts to itch. Ok, now I’m not liking this. They turn around so say something and realize its much more serious… My face is now swelling up. 0_o oh shit! So my tongue is swelling around my tongue ring but not in an uncomfortable way. We ix-nay the Fat Tuesday’s and head to the car. Jeannette calls Lamar (Firefighter & Paramedic) and he says skip the EMS truck, give me some Benadryl and head to the closest hospital.
Since I was the driver, My privileges were suspended and Jea hops in and Naomi is on the P-Side giving directions. Michelle & Janiya are in the back watching me. At this point, my eyes are itching, arms and torso are broken out in hives. This shit is NOT cool. We’re haulin ass up i95 to Jackson North and don’t really care about getting pulled over. FINALLY… We make it there.

Me & Naomi jump out, I’m scratchin the FUXX outta my body and breathing like a morbidly obese man. She’s looking for my info and talking to the triage lady. After 2mins, Naomi tells the lady I cant breath & she notices me sitting with my head tilted back to open me passage way. (That nursing program really helped me. I was always the one on the other side. It was crazy to be the patient.) She jumps around the desk and brings me to the back to get my IV started. She says I should be very happy to have good friends because ,my minutes were limited and had I come in a little later, There may have been a very BAD outcome. While this is all happening, I still have my phone. Ppl have different ways of coping so whatever ppl do 2 make themselves comfortable and not panic is fine by me. So now we go to the ER bed area and EMS is in the way. She pushes his outta the way and people are telling her she cant bring me yet. She ignores them & starts going off cuz precious time is wasting. My airway is on the line & i; prefer not to have a breathing tube.
35 seconds after Naomi tells them my name, Nurse Anne comes in & starts pushing meds through my IV. I can feel it in my nose. WTF?? Naomi is texting my ex, calling my mom, answering all questions about me and trying to keep me from panicking. Some how, it is all working out. We hear a lady screaming bloody murder and 3screams later, we hear a baby cry. Congrats lady! lol. After a while, I’m dead ass tired and KNOCK OUT. They keep waking me up to do shit & ask shit. Phones are dying, Jea had to take Michelle and the baby home. My mom is hysterical. and im freezing my ass off. THEN… they make me put on that ugly ass gown with my ass hanging out… Good thing I had on my new Vickys undies. ;) I walk to the bathroom & my cheeks are showing, fuck it, im sick. LOL.
Time goes on, I go back to sleep. The nurse got scared because I looked like I was dead. Sorry lady, I sleep with my mouth and eyes open. LOL. (shut up, don’t comment) Somehow, someway our phones manage to keep a good enough charge until Jeannette comes back to pick us up. GREAT! 4;30am rolls around and they let me leave. I hit the bed & lights out. Got my meds today & feel like caca doo doo. BLAH! & now Im back to normal.. I guess. But apparently im now allergic to shellfish and iodine. –_____- even though I’ve been eating shellfish my whole damn life. Womp Womp!
Special thanks to the fast acting friends for getting me to a hospital in one piece and to Kimi for staying up & on call if she needed to hit it to NMB. Also to the people who checked on me as this whole ordeal was taking place. You never know when something is going to happen to yourself or a loved one so cherish life and live it up!!

My Night With A Maniac

Some of u may sorta know this story since I was tweeting as it was happening. But in case you’re wondering how the hell it happened… Like to hear it, here it go…

In efforts of making that “Long Kiss Goodnight” a reality, I agree to go “walk and talk”. We haven’t been face to face since about Sept/Oct. He’s usually out of the country working. I’m on my own schedule. Etc. I mean, I already knew it was gonna be some bullshit since that’s the norm but whatever, It was worth a shot. Fast Forward.. Park the car. Pizza. Cross street. Beach. So I sit on the wall & start eating my pizza. I guess I wasn’t being affectionate because someone had their boxers all in a bunch. 

Honestly, I hold no punches when it comes 2 this person. We’ll call him.. SB. The amount of things we’ve gone through surpasses things I’ve ever imagined. And this is only in the 2years that we’ve been dealing with each other. So SB decides to ask a question. I didn’t want to answer. THATS where it all started. I don’t owe ANYONE ANY explanations. So he gets all angry and says if I walk away, its gonna be for good. Was that supposed to make me want to answer the question?? #FAIL. That was fuel to my fire.

So I’m walking towards the car but I continue past the parking lot, Onto East Sunrise Blvd. I stayed on the Eastbound side so he cant pull over. *Phone rings* IGNORE (repeat 5times). I stop halfway across the bridge and take a minute to look at the scenery. Finally, I answer the phone & agree to cross over. I get in the car and we begin driving. He starts talkin shit so i keep sayin let me out. Instead of going i95 N.. He decides to go south. “I hope whatever nigga just called u finna pick u up from Down South.. & by that I mean the Grove” Then he sayin 163rd… Then he tries 2b funny & say Biscayne & 79th (–_-) So I already have somebody lined up 2scoop.

We pull over off Hallandale & i say let me out @ the RaceTrack. I jump out & walk inside. Call my cousin. *phone rings, SB Calling* IGNORE (repeat 3times) He wants me 2get back in the car. I say no & if he wants to talk he needs to come 2the front of the store. “What u think imma beat u up or something??” No that’s besides the point, this shit aint on his time. No store, no talk. He comes & guess what… YUUUP, u guessed it.. I went OFF on that ass. So as I’m BLACKIN on his life, a car pulls up & they just wait & watch & laugh. At this point I didnt even care. SB says he was gonna take me 2 his ppl house so they can see me cuz they miss me. He gets teary eyed with his cry baby ass & FINALLY I tell him I’ll get in the car if I drive. *Making our way back to Lauderdale* Words are exchanged and we get to the house. We park & I have 3 dangerous, concerned people outside. They wait. We sit. Everything is under control. I get out. He drives off.

Guys, dudes, males, men whatever… need to figure out a better way to channel their emotions & feelings. Kidnapping your ex-girlfriend is NOT the best way to go about it. Especially if you’re not even supposed 2b driving!!

At no point did I fear for my life or safety. This ninja aint stupid. I was ok. It was just aggravating as hell… as usual. If I felt some type of way, i definitely would’ve been on the phone with BSO instead of Twitter. & No.. There hasn’t been any contact since that night.

And the moral of the story is…

If U Don’t Know, Now U Know You’re Gonna Miss (My Love) & I Aint Stressin Bout A Doggone Thing Cuz I Was True When I Gave U (My Love) If U Search U Will NEVER Find Another Love Like ( My Love). You’re Gonna Miss Me. I Aint Got Time While U Sit Around & Play With (My Love).

FIN

P.S. I might’ve 4got some parts but *shrugs* ya’ll get the picture. Lol

I KNOW its SO Wrong BUT It Feels SO Right..

At some point in life, We ALL feel this way. Me, more often than not. #DontJudgeMe lol. I just always end up in these situations. I don’t look for them… they find me. Whether I’m in FL or NY… Its ALWAYS something. I’m not completely reckless but I do have a bit of a “Fuk It” attitude. As cliché as it sounds, I’ll say it anyway: “You only live once & I intend to live my life to the fullest.” Yes, I’ve made a few stupid choices but they could have all been a lot worse.

Neway… Its a HE.. & I probably shouldnt be dealing with him in the slightest way but it sorta just turned out that we click. We have a lot of mutual friends & THAT definitely poses BIG PROBLEMS. I can’t say TOO much or give details because I KNOW it’s some people that might start putting clues 2gthr (Police ass niggas!) lol. We get along great & I don’t really want to cross that line. But we all know how easily that can happen. One of those situations where you know if ya’ll are alone for more than a few minutes, its goin DOWN. lol. So me being the smart girl that I am, I simply won’t be alone with him.

When I leave NY, I plan on keeping in touch.. to an extent. But in reality… Its not a good look for either of us. We can be friends but that’s it. & besides, I already have something else in the works… IDK if he knows it yet though. LOL. ;)

I Pity The Fool...

... Who tries to play ME for a fool. Just because someone APPEARS to be oblivious, doesn't mean that they actually ARE oblivious. Like C'Mon Son FukOuttaHereWitThatBullshitSon!! This REALLY goes for people that are supposed to know u, care about u, and (if u let them tell it).. LOVE u. People's emotions are not to be toyed with. So before you try to run game, u may want to give it a 2nd thought. Because on the really real.. NO peen or puss is worth a broken heart. Yes, it may be that "Wham Bam Thank You, Ma'am With A Grand Slam" (sorry, I was on a roll! lol) but still, its probably is not worth it.

The moral of the story is... I was born in the morning... not THIS morning.

Quit fuggin LYIN & (wo)man up!